i don't want to go to school
i am to fat
this depression has consumed me

 every day is a battle
to survive
i feel like i am drowning

 i am not pregnant
and i can't stop crying
i thought i would finally having something and someone to love forever
i guess not

:(

my life has fallen apart

gah
it seems that everytime i pick myself back up
i fall apart again
why?
some tell me why
i can't do this anymore
i know my disorder
is slowly killing me
but i can't bear to let it go
it has become my life
the one thing i keep a secret from people
idk if it sounds fucked up
its the truth
and hate ana
but yet she is my best friend
twisted huh?
how can u love something that causes you so much pain?
someone answer me
PLEASE

hmm
being skinny
adn beautiful
thats whats keeping me from my dream job

i keep all my secrets
no one knows my deepest secret
:)

is confusing
i cry for no reason
but i haven't eaten for two days
:)
water is my best friend

I have a cold
and it sucks
and I doubt that anyone is reading this but i need to vent
gah
i am sick of everything
slowly
everything is falling apart
help me

my sanity
and my faith
and not caring about my weight
gah